Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Opening the Box
I can't say that I've ever been one to write out my thoughts or my feelings. I tried the whole journal thing thing when I was ten, but even then I didn't write what I completely wanted to say for the fear that my deepest darkest secrets would be exposed. Seriously, when people found out who you were crushing on, it was one of the most devastating things that could happen to a ten year old. Well, maybe it was just me but I thought the whole purpose of having a crush was never letting the crushee find out. Also let's be frank- I am probably one of the least emotional girls that I know. I can't find a deeper meaning in poetry and the only movie that I have ever cried in was Jen Aniston's dog flick, Marley and Me. I frowned upon high school relationships and avoided them at all cost. Even in college the idea of being in a "committed relationship" scares the shit out of me. Hell, I sometimes think that I'll never be able to get married because I fear that I'll be bored of the person within a few years. So why the hell am I spilling guts over a site that the entire world can access? It's simple: I really don't give a fuck anymore and it's on The List.
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you know what I think about this whole relationship thing courtney. I think that one problem you have with them, is the ability to trust people easily. It can be both a good and a bad thing. Sometimes you just need to take chances in life. I have taken many chances in my life and have only seen good come out of them. Sometimes it takes time to find that certain someone, but trust me when you do, you will feel deep down inside that, that person is the right person for you. In my life I have made many relationship mistakes, but I have learned from them all. And it has made me into the person that I am today. The one thing that I have learned most people do wrong is rush into a relationship, or think that they need to be in one at all times. You never want to force yourself into a relationship unless you know that, that person is the right person for you. I wouldn't be saying any of this unless I truly meant every word of it.
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