Gruesome, right?
A lovely friend of mine happen to post a link very similar to that on my facebook.
http://dontclickthis.whatingods.name.nyud.net/murder-bears.jpg?ref=red
That lovely friend also knew that I happen to advocate for the saving of polar bears.
He also knows that I harbor a soft spot for cute creatures (i.e seals, kitties, baby pandas)
The photo completely contradicted my beliefs.
It made me realize that I am a walking contradiction.
I hate when pedestrians walk in front of my car like they own the place when I'm driving in a parking lot.
However, I do it all the time.
I push for peace.
Yet, I find the concepts of war interesting.
I would love to be someone's wife.
Oddly, the idea of committing myself to one person forever terrifies me.
I protest Wal*Mart.
Sadly, half of the things I own come from China.
It's not that I think that I'm a bad person for this planet- that'd be a lie.
I mean not the brag, but I do go out of my way to make sure my carbon footprint is minimal.
I have reusable grocery bags.
I drive a fuel efficient car.
I try to do my laundry at night.
I constantly turn off lights around my apartment.
All that makes me good, right?
What I'm getting at is that I'm incredibly indecisive and still have no idea what the hell I want from life.
I don't know what I want to do as a career, yet I know that I need a job to survive this world.
I have 3 1/2 years before I graduate.....
If I had my way, I'd just bum around and travel. You know, chill in Bali, improve my French in Switzerland....
Mags said that it worked out for Jack Kerouac.
However, I don't believe that I'm creative enought to write poetry or brave enough to do LSD in order to be the modern version of him.
Help me please?
What should I be?
What am I even really good at?
In the end, there is one thing that I do want: Happiness.
I think that I'm pretty good at doing that.
Since you asked, I'll tell you what to do: go to the school career counselors office, take a career preference test, seriously consider the top three careers that come up. Spend your summers in internships at places that are related to the careers you are considering.
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Your concepts of going out of your way and of a "minimal" carbon footprint not only intrigue me, they make me laugh. So does the notion that you need a job to survive this world, but if you had it your way, you'd "bum around and travel." You can't have it your way because you think you're going out of your way to "drive a fuel-efficient car." If it weren't for that, I might offer you an opportunity to have it your way this summer, but that'd be so far out of your way, you'd implode.
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